Thank you all for your comments regarding my NaNo inquiry a couple of weeks ago :).
I've decided that I won't officially post it on the site, even though I think it counts halfway (50k in 30 days, right?). But just to adhere to the rules and the spirit of NaNo, I'll just keep it here between us ;)
The fact of the matter is that I know I did it, and what's more, now I know I can do it.
I think that's what the driving factor was from the very start... overcoming that self-doubt and pushing myself to see if I could.
Because I didn't believe I could.
There's just too much going on in my life, it's almost impossible to balance and it's just so... hard. But I think this was just my excuse... something to make me feel better about tottering on the edge of the fence, afraid to see what might be on the other side.
I'm going to delve a bit more into the power of doubt and its inhibiting role on Monday, but today I wanted talk about pushing yourself to do things you never thought were possible.
50k... heck, even 20k is no small feat. It's a lot of work, and it takes a lot of commitment, perseverance and time--which is something we never seem to have enough of. And it's always more or less depending on what stage of life you're in.
But you can do it.
You just have to believe in yourself that much, and know that even if you don't get to it today, you will get to it. Just don't give up.
Because this is your dream. And you want it that badly.
We can't always follow our schedules... life, kids, families, work... don't always allow for things to be cookie cutter perfect, but that's okay. Don't beat yourself up over the small things. They'll always be there - we just have to learn to accept them.
My goal for this weekend is to finish the novel. I haven't touched it for two weeks. I'm about 4k away, but I know it will take a bit more than that to tie up the loose ends, but I am going to do it.
Because now I know I can.
And I hope you know you can too. At the end of the day, you can't stay on the fence forever--you need to pick a side, and the positive side is a heck of a lot nicer than the one filled with doubt.
And of course you know it's sharing time :)
Have you ever felt this way about your writing, or anything else? Did you ever accomplish something that you thought wasn't possible? How did you feel?
I hope you all have a wonderful, inspiring, and hopeful weekend!