Monday, February 8, 2010

What is wrong with me?

Alright, not only have I not been posting as much as I should be, I've also run into another roadblock with the book.

I hate my book. Again. Yes. Again.

I'm currently at almost 16,000 words and I'm re-reading it and thinking to myself... what am I thinking?? No one is going to want to read this, I don't even want to.

It's so weird--like the story is there--I know what I want it to be, but it is soooo jumbled in my brain and I don't know how to make heads or tails of it. I've been suffering with this problem for months!

Second problem? I think it's been done before, in some way or another--it's been done. It's tired and not unique. And I just don't know what to do. Coming up with a fresh new idea is not as easy as it seems! Sometimes I wonder if the key to success is just revamping an old idea into something people want to be a part of again.

I've been sitting at my computer for hours, just staring at the screen, and trying to figure out whether or not I should start over. Again. Yes. Again.

And... I think I'm going to. Besides all of the above, one my characters is just too overbearing, and I think people may hate him. But he's a great guy, he really is. He is just having trouble expressing himself. Sigh. Like me.

So much for my resolutions. I'm sorry that this is such a down post. I'm not giving up yet though. This will be my fourth revision of this book, but I hope it will be worth it.

What do you do when you fall into this rut? Do you ever?


Elana Johnson said...

Oh, I have a very strong love/hate relationship with my books. Sometimes I love them, and everyone's going to buy them, and sometimes I hate them and wish I'd never started writing.

I think it's one of those things you have to go THROUGH and not around. You know?

WritingNut said...

Thanks Elana! I'm so glad to know that I'm not the only one. And you're right - where would we be if life were all detours and no scenic routes, even if they do take longer?

Thanks again for stopping by! :)